昨天，和老公闹情绪。老公火大了，开始发脾气，踢掉所有的椅子。
小宝贝目睹了一切，放声大哭。
我本来不想要理会任何人，可是心中还是有把声音催促我把小宝贝和小小宝贝抱进去房间。
回头又用手把 baby car seat 弄翻。“你以为只有你会丢东西吗？！！”
本来已经静下来的小宝贝，又放声大哭，望着我的眼神是那么地无助。
我视而无睹。因为心中的火气遮盖了一切。
接下来，我依然没有要道歉或者是和好的念头。我是那么地冷漠对待每一个人。
小宝贝尝试了很多方法要老公和我和好如初。
小宝贝甚至吻了我的手臂一下，然后说，“ 我爱你。”
她的不安，我都看在眼里。可是我就是不要认错，为什么我就不可以发脾气啊？
（当然，这是一个很愚蠢的斗气。身为大人的我，怎么可以让小孩承受这种压力呢？）
后来，老公先让步。不过，我已经累得没有力气应对了。
今天，我们谈了一些。
[3:19:24 PM] pooi .: i am sorry that i throw temper last night
[3:19:38 PM] pooi .: i hope together we could stop throwing things
[3:19:44 PM] pooi .: especially in front of kids
[3:19:59 PM] clancelee: ok.. i am really sorry about last night, i don’t know why i am like that
[3:20:15 PM] pooi .: u are too tired plus a nagging wife beside u
[3:24:14 PM] pooi .: ok
[3:43:53 PM] pooi .: btw, i told ning that, we will not feed her during mealtime anymore
[3:44:04 PM] pooi .: she promised it
[3:44:28 PM] pooi .: i told her even when grandma offer to feed u, u should tell her u can eat by yourself.
[3:44:46 PM] pooi .: she agreed while asking why sung hwa let ppl feed him
[3:45:27 PM] pooi .: i told her she is my girl, she follows my rule plus she already know how to eat by herself since long time ago.. it is her own responsibility to take care of her hungry tummy
[3:45:43 PM] pooi .: i told her if she ask anyone of us to feed her, i will keep the meal
[3:45:46 PM] pooi .: no tolerance
[3:46:03 PM] pooi .: tmr if my mum offer to feed her, let’s wait for ning to reply
[3:46:20 PM] pooi .: if ning does not know how to reply or she forgets, i will tell my mum myself
[3:46:59 PM] pooi .: i was so mad yst when u mentioned on other kids feed by the adults
[3:47:40 PM] pooi .: i was mad and upset due to , i was stuck in each time my girl is doing good action, she gets influence by other ppl
[3:48:13 PM] pooi .: and then by using the name of “love” , i let her develop backwards
[3:48:27 PM] pooi .: grandma feeds her, we cannot stop grandma love
[3:48:33 PM] pooi .: i think i cannot accept this
[3:49:33 PM] pooi .: 如果我的孩子连吃饭都不想要自己做了，她还能为自己做什么呢？
[3:51:11 PM] clancelee: understood
[3:53:00 PM] pooi .: i should have tell u nicely
[3:53:02 PM] pooi .: sorry
[3:53:10 PM] pooi .: i just get so mad and throw temper
[3:54:24 PM] clancelee: i should not have interrupt either.. but when i was asking her why she need feeding, she gives me a feeling that she just wants it
[3:54:33 PM] clancelee: i feel that lately she is seeking for our loves
[3:54:49 PM] clancelee: but your point are right that this are the things that she need to do for herself
[3:54:55 PM] clancelee: and i am wrong to relent it
[3:55:23 PM] clancelee: the other thing is she tried so hard to sleep last night as well knowing that you and i are angry
[3:55:40 PM] clancelee: but she just couldn’t sleep, i think she took up two hours to try to sleep
[3:56:18 PM] clancelee: but at the end, i figure out that she just not used to the environment or she is seeking for loves again. i hug her, carry her and sing her lullaby
[3:56:26 PM] clancelee: then she finally sleeps
[3:56:29 PM] pooi .: yes, i heard what she say too.. “i want u to feed me”..i will spend more time with her, hug her more and kiss her more…the sleep thing also need to tell u, she took her nap, and i dont think she could sleep so early too…
[3:56:48 PM] clancelee: i know she can’t sleep
[3:57:02 PM] clancelee: but i think she feel uncomfortable and she keep requesting for sleep
[3:57:16 PM] clancelee: i didn’t want to sleep
[3:57:47 PM] pooi .: i thought u want to, hence i am thinking if u want to sleep earlier, u proceed, i can take care of ning
[3:58:05 PM] clancelee: no.. she requested to sleep since going out to throw rubbish
[3:58:47 PM] clancelee: i bring her out to living room but she still just sits quietly and request to go back to sleep
小宝贝，你比爸爸妈妈还更加成熟。谢谢你！
小宝贝，我想要对你说，“爸爸妈妈爱你最久！”
